Lord, Messiah, Son of God,

Things were not supposed to end this way!

All power is surely Yours to command!

Why don’t You cast off the cloak of humanity?

Let Your true glory show.

My heart rips with each lash that falls on Your back

Guilty! Guilty! Guilty! They call out to me.

You knew, didn’t You, Rabbi, Master,

When You knelt at my feet to wash,

That with a kiss of friendship I’d betray you

And for 30 pieces of silver lose my eternity.

You ravening wolves, take back your silver,

Keepers of the law, let that innocent man go free.

How can you pervert justice?

How can you laugh in my face?

Can you not see the sin that is staining your hands?

Can you not see the Judgment Throne of the Holy God

As without defence before Him you stand?

O Sinless, Innocent One

How can I ever be forgiven for what I have done?

There is no atonement left for me.

Life is too bitter for me, the cup of folly I’ve drunk

Now its poison works within me

Withering all hope

And showing me the end of the road.


And so Judas died. Lonely, trapped in his guilt and remorse.

Mercy was being released like a mighty flood at the cross, a river that would cover the earth.

But Judas confused his friends and his enemies. He ran to the religious leaders, counting them as his friends, but they were merely hirelings who only cared to maintain their Raj. He thought he had some value some worth to them; after all he’d helped them achieve their goal. For them he was only another cog in the wheel, and Judas discovered that too late.

‘Self’ ruled Judas’ heart and so he could not see the mercy of God. He had heard Jesus’ tell person after person, ‘Your sins are forgiven you, go and sin no more.’ That was for ‘them’, the sinners, the fallen, immoral people, not for him – Judas Iscariot, keeper of the moneybag, disciple of Jesus. That seed which brought forth good fruit in the hearts of so many, fell by the wayside in his heart.

Cut off from the group he’d known for 3 years, rejected by the ones he’d trusted, alone and friendless, caught in the dark of despair, Judas stood condemned by his own heart. He confused his friends and his enemies once again. He ran from the scene of the crime, but not to the arms of God.

He’d walked with Jesus for three years, and yet had not understood the heart of mercy and grace of the Father God who was willing to welcome the prodigal son.

I always wonder what would have happened if Judas’ had fallen face down before God.

Would God have turned him away?

On the cross Jesus was dying as atonement for the sins of the world, and on another tree Judas was hanging because he chose to carry his own sin.

Jesus said, ” … whoever comes to me I will never cast out” …  John 6:37-40

I don’t know what personal demons-  fear, despair, guilt, shame or loneliness you are wrestling with today. May I encourage you to hope?

Judas thought he had to get his act together before he went to God. He saw no way to put things right and was crushed by the despairing, dead-ended thought that he would never be forgiven by God.

But there is NO SIN so heinous that God will not forgive. Jesus died on the cross to take the punishment of our sins on Himself. On the cross, Jesus cried, ‘Tetelestai’ – a greek word, which even today is the word that is stamped on invoices, meaning, ‘Paid in full, no further claims to be made on this account’.

You are forgiven. Already. Because Jesus died in your place on the cross. He’s paid the price for your forgiveness. You don’t have to carry your sin, or pay for it by yourself. You just have to go to God asking Him to forgive you, and receive the forgiveness that is yours BECAUSE Jesus died for you.

God accepts us as we are, and when we put our lives in His hand, He slowly untangles things – lives, thoughts, emotions, and establishes us in peace.

Jesus promised, He’d never throw out anyone who came to Him. Run to His arms, tell Him your thoughts, fears, battles, your mistakes, your goof-ups and ask Him to take over your life, your battles, your confusions, and give you His peace. He will. He loves you. May His peace and grace be multiplied to you.

The LORD is compassionate, merciful, patient, and always ready to forgive…

He has not treated us as we deserve for our sins or paid us back for our wrongs.

As high as the heavens are above the earth- that is how vast his mercy is toward those who fear him.

As far as the east is from the west- that is how far he has removed our rebellious acts from himself.

As a father has compassion for his children, so the LORD has compassion for those who fear him.

Psalm 103:8-13