Trapped in a darkness that hides each shape and form
How can I take a step forward?
How far is the wall up ahead?
Is there a wrinkle or fold over which I might stumble?
What snares lie before me?
I don’t know.
I don’t like the not-knowing,
The helpless feeling of no-control.
Stripped of all confidence
I feel each step forward
How do I know I have reached my destination,
Or strayed off the path into a dead-end?
My Father in heaven, He sees me.
He knows every trembling, hesitant step.
He feels the doubtful groping
And He draws closer than ever before,
His whisper breaks the hypnotic trance of my fears.
He sees me, He does not despise the weakness within me.
He holds me gently by the hand,
And He speaks His words of comfort and instruction
And leads me line upon line
Precept upon precept, along a path I do not know,
But ‘tis a path made bright by His Truth.
He enlarges my steps underneath me
And makes the rough places smooth.
My trembling heart is learning to trust Him,
To lean on His mighty arm,
To wait each moment upon Him
To find new strength each day in His love.
Then I will lead the blind along a path they never knew to places where they have never been before. I will change darkness into light for them. I will make the rough ground smooth. I will do these things for them; I will not abandon my people. Isa 42:16
Who is that coming up from the wilderness, leaning on her beloved? … Song of Songs 8:5
Major learning through the last year:
- God does not despise me for not knowing the way. Nor is He impatient with my ‘blindness’
- God speaks. ALWAYS!!!!! He is never, never, ever silent. The only problem is that He does not give me the answers I want to hear, because I want quick fix solutions, I want to know the last page of the story. Hehehehe… I want to know where I am going so I can feel I am in control.
- God however is interested in the journey, in making sure each step I take is sure-footed and in the right path.
- God delights to guide me and lead me and lend me His arm.